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be my escape- relient k
I’ve given up on giving up slowly, I’m blending in so
You won’t even know me apart from this whole world that shares my fate
This one last bullet you mention is my one last shot at redemption
because I know to live you must give your life away
And I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.
I’m giving up on doing this alone now
Cause I’ve failed and I’m ready to be shown how
He’s told me the way and I’m trying to get there
And this life sentence that I’m serving
I admit that I’m every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair
Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
Cause I’m afraid that this complacency is something I can’t shake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.
I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self detained and forced to live in this mess I’ve made
And all I’m asking is for You to do what You can with me
But I can’t ask You to give what You already gave
Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while you hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I’ve gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I’ve gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging
You to be my escape.
I fought You for so long
I should have let You in
Oh how we regret those things we do
And all I was trying to do was save my own skin
But so were You
So were You
Thursday, March 29, 2007
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Sunday, April 09, 2006
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I know it's long overdue.
Moved. Wednesday, April 05, 2006
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I'm having a hard time trying to put down my thoughts into words. Of course, that might have something to do with the fact that my thoughts are incoherent and fragmented more than my lack of vocabulary, which I won't deny either.
Days have been crazy, with more than the usual share of shockers and suprises, some more unpleasant than the others. And it leads me to wonder about people and the allure of juicy gossip. It's no wonder that so few people in the world can be trusted really, others just babble, exaggerating the truth till it seems larger than life, without any concern of the consquences of their actions. We all know news travels fast, and it often manfeists itself into a monster that's beyond our control. We simply can't exert any form of influence over the choice of audience. And it's really sad that at our age (we're legal adults for goodness's sake!), there're still people out who are either still so naive and ignorant of the workings of our society, or simply choose not to care about the consquences of their failure to control their weird impluses in front of the wrong people.
And really, it's none of your fucking business.
I know I sound really angsty and I apologise, but it just annoys me really really bad that some people assume that it's alright for them to go around yakking away about stuffs that really doesn't concern them in the least. In my opinion, this inability to control themselves at the ripe old age of 18 years old is a cause for concern. So what if you're in the top 20% of your cohort and in jc? Big fucking deal. That doesn't make you a better person. So what if you think you're always right? No one really gives a shit what you think. And so what if you think your morals are sound and perfectly justifiable? do you REALLY think that gives you immunity for your actions?
Screw off and just leave me alone.
Hmms. I could rant and rave forever, but I've got to eat, shower and head to school. Oh... and if any of you are bored and speculating about the above entry, don't bother. I'm not talking about you or anyone else you know. I swear! Anyways, on a lighter note, I watched the south park episode about scientology yesterday, it's freaking funny. Go watch it if you can find it, it's worth the long hours of waiting for it to d/l.
Laters.
Sunday, April 02, 2006
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Back.
Hockey camp was pretty nice, the team bonded quite a fair bit and we look pretty good for the upcoming tournment, at least mentally. It's quite an experience to have a coach as intense as our's, but the love, care and concern she's shown us has really touched us all. The little things she does really blows your mind. She's more than a coach to so many of us and I hope that we won't let her down.
I know we won't.
Too tired to give a blow by blow recount of the camp but maybe I'll do that the next time I come online.
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Relieved. =)
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
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I need to sleep.
The usual crazy-mugging scenario so familar to me, repeated once again. I wonder when I'll finally follow through on my promises and actually start to be consistent in my work.
Papers were pretty screwed, didn't expect bio to turn out the way it did: Badly. Then again, how much can you expect from studying 2 days beforehand when everyone else has been mugging since before the march holidays started? I could plead for innocence and blame it all on that damn flu bug, but while it has made studying a whole lot more difficult, you and I both know that when there's a will, there's a way so I'm not going to go there.
Conflicted.
Personal satisifaction or team effort. I know it's so godamn selfish to want to adjudicate on friday but... argh. I don't know. Forget it.
Mug mug mug mug. I need to mug.